Listless

I lay in bed and not want to get up, there is a list with a million things that has to be taken care of.  I am not motivated and I am just not able to bring myself to do anything at all .......

It's the last day of my three day weekend off; and still I sit here, still not motivated, still cannot bring myself to take care of chores around the house.

Still angry .... still upset .... still unable to grasp at this restlessness .... this inability to focus!!!

I do things mechanically, no real interest .... tomorrow I go back to work, a place that I dread so much, my body aches, my mind is tired, it all gets me down.  Wish I could pick myself up and start again.

Grasshopper friend

It was with shock I received the news that the bone in my side was leaving the place of work. We had this mutual respect relationship built on work ethics and responsibilities. Also, we shared the loathsome attitude towards stupidity and laziness of the low information associates.

Now, there will be no one to commiserate with on my annoyance with situations or vent my displeasure at certain individuals. There will be no one to share venomous opinions or create nick names for undesirables.

Yes, my peers have all but left.... I am the only dinosaur left standing!!!

Au revoir, David Snowdeal!

Post vacation

Walking in my garden and noticing all the fallen leaves from last Fall makes me sigh in resignation. Desperately I am hoping to find someone to come and spruce up the garden. They say, what your heart desires will come to fruition; have been hoping to get the garden looking nice for two years now and I have not given up hope in finding the solution.

The weather is transitioning slowly into Autumn, we are waiting anxiously for the heat and humidity of summer to break. Looking out for plants that will grace the back deck or front patio for our gathering in two weeks.

The theme would be more fall-like; the house is still in need of some cleaning and dusting. After a hectic week at work, I am not motivated to house clean or do anything really, but, just chill out and relax with a glass of wine.

My thoughts turn to family and friends and the wonderful vacation in Malaysia. My heart tries not to reminisce as I go through daily chores and routine.

Funny, with each passing year and as we  advance in age, we long to be home surrounded my family and familiar faces and places.  It was emotional for me the last week before my departure, I would wake up at 4.30 in the morning and get all emotional at the thought of having to leave. I text messaged  all my friends thanking them for their hospitality and for sharing their time with me, informing them not to call on the day of my departure as I would be returning the borrowed phone I was using during my vacation.  Did not want the emotional drama or the burden of upsetting family members.  My heart was breaking at having to say goodbye to everyone.

Now, we stay in touch via all the social media that is available to us. Still, I miss them!