and so it begins

 It's become apparent to me that my motivation has been waning, things that I used to enjoy is now a burden.  There's lack of interest in getting stuff done, the housework is weighing me down, cooking which I used to enjoy is now such a difficult task.

Today I managed to enclose the two envelopes which will be mailed to my sibling, that should have been taken care of two or even three weeks ago; I have been procrastinating a lot these days.

I wonder whether the advancing of age is the main reason for  me being "not bothered" about anything. There are days when I get this burst of energy and housework is a breeze and than I drift back to not caring enough ..... not motivated.

 

First day of the rest of my days free from work schedules

Enjoying a glass of wine in the late afternoon while sitting on the swing on the back deck,  so this is what retirement feels like.

It's the freedom of not having to watch the clock, not a care in the world, getting to just take my time, pausing to remind myself  I can now just do anything at my own pace.

Such an elation to arrive at this day, to breathe and to know that I've made it to the finish line. Freedom from my job.

It has been a very long and arduous journey, one filled with lots of  personal achievement, challenges and most of all it has taught me to appreciate life's many blessing. I choose to remember the positive and warm memories and will not look back to all the dark and painful periods. It's time to move on and to keep appreciating all that is yet to come.

God in His infinite Goodness has  filled me with His blessing and His graces to carry me through each day for the last fourteen years.

 I am forever grateful.