February blizzard

The wind is howling outside, as I sit here looking out through the French doors I see the show dust drifting in the wind. Ken is still out side shoveling the walk way, the snow blower would not start up today and he has to shovel the eight inches of snow which was plastered to our front door this morning.

This is the part of winter that grips my heart, all these snowfall and the harshness of having to plough through the mounds of now we get up here in the mountain, only to having to repeat it time and time again until the winter season is done.

The year has started out quite challenging for both Ken and me, we are still trying to make a full recovery from the flu bug. I have taken a couple of days off to recuperate but with the cold all around and having to endure the winds and chills of winter, it's quite a battle to get back to our fully charged healthy state, but, we are winning it.

A friend of mine which I have reconnected through social media, has just lost her husband of twenty nine years.  My heart aches for her, reading from the condolence messages Mr Kaya was a nice and kind person. Siti Azni, my friend, is a nice person herself. We lost contact with each other for thirty five years, it was nice to reconnect and Siti related to me a little about her life and we exchanged little bits of information.

She will be in mourning for four month according to muslim law, but, I know Siti will mourn the demise of her husband through out the rest of her life.

Sometimes in my musings I wonder, - at this stage in my life, death seems to surround me, I hear news of the passing of brothers in law, friends and spouses of  mutual friends, - is it time for me to prepare for my departure.  I am not ready to move on to the other world, there is still so much to do and to take care of.

Life is so fragile now, when the days get shorter and the memory lingers on the days gone by and the heart longs for more time, more energy, more focus.

I have purpose, this will keep me motivated when the mind wanders ... my purpose will keep me grounded.

My faith and the grace of God will guide me for the next days ahead.