This feeling that I feel

I get this feeling once again, I cannot understand it, I cannot reason it out. I get this feeling and I just don't know how to deal with it.
I get this feeling and my world is in a spin, I get this feeling and I just  want to be alone. I get this feeling and I don't like it. I get this feeling all over again.
Grasping at nothingness, longing for the voice of  a brother now gone forever. Missing the family unit that was not even tangible.
I get this feeling and life is so lonely. I get this feeling and I just can't help but cry ....