Happy 47th Brithday Irven George Gomes

Woke up this morning and you were on my mind.  I have been thinking of you a lot these past few days, I suppose that is to be expected since you left us just four days ago on May 7th. We are doing ok, Siti is still grieving, and like the rest of us, moving forward slowly. 
Siti informed me that she had prepared meals in the house to celebrate your birthday and brought some food packeges to Kakak and Adik to share with friends at the Asrama in celebration of your birthday ..... that is nice.
I know Violet has cooked some devilled curry in honour of your birthday.  I cooked some fried rice and ate it  in your hounour (the fried rice is the best fried rice in the whole of Malaysia!!!!) with lots of vegetables, egg and chicken .....enjoy!
What is it like where you are Ivan .... are you really happy...is mama with you, did you see nanny ...what about daddy and mummy ?????
I hope you're alright Ivan ....we worry about you .... could you give me a sign that you're ok,  ... a white rose (symbol of mama and confirming that you are with her and happy).
Since coming home from Malaysia, my heart has been restless, I do not enjoy being at the work place and I seek solitude most times.
It will get better soon enough.  Ok, this is not about me, but, I am writing this blog to remember your birthday and to celebrate you!
Be happy, don't worry .... laugh that gila laughter and call me Baber one more time.

Happy Birthday dearest Ivan, we love you and when the time comes for me, please be there to greet me together with your beloved mama.